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Angela
Carter just doesn’t get sex. She’s carefully structured every aspect of her
life, but what goes on in the bedroom seems infuriatingly out of her control.
Now, she needs a man to teach her how to let go and experience the sensual
awakening she’s always dreamed of and the only place to find such an expert is
Club Ecstasy-the luxurious, confidential destination for pleasure.
Above all
else, Brent Delaney is a professional - and more than capable in the bedroom.
But when he meets Angela, he quickly discovers he’s met his match. He has to
get that powerful mind of hers to shut down and let more…savage…thoughts take
over. As an expert, he’s determined to break down this gorgeous woman’s
analytical walls. But this seduction is going to take some creativity…
TOTAL
ABANDON: CHAPTER ONE
Chapter One
Dr. Angela Carter
couldn’t quite make herself sit down. Not that the proprietor’s office at Club
Ecstasy wasn’t a welcoming place. Tastefully decorated with antique furniture and
modern reproductions, the room could have come from a stylish,
expensive magazine. Nothing gave away the ultimate purpose of the place:
connecting female clients with men who provided very special sexual services. And
certainly no one from her lab would have followed her here to watch her pace
the oriental carpet. So why couldn’t she simply take a seat and wait to see
what would happen? Lord knew she’d paid enough for the privilege.
Finally the office door
opened, and a woman every bit as elegant as her surroundings stepped
inside, pulling the door closed behind her. “I’m sorry to have kept you
waiting.”
“I was early.” Angela
ran her palms along the sides of her slacks. No need, really. Her hands weren’t
clammy.
“You must be Dr.
Carter.” The woman extended her hand.
“Angela, please.” When
they shook, the other woman’s hand almost disappeared inside Angela’s. Even
though the proprietor stood nearly as tall as Angela, she still managed to
appear delicate. Small boned, perhaps, like the girls in high school who’d
always made Angela feel, well, big. And awkward. And brainy. But why in hell
did any of this remind her of the worst four years of her life?
“I’m Madeline Shaw,”
the woman said as she gestured to a chair on the visitor’s side of the desk.
“Shaw?” Angela repeated.
“Of the clothing and perfume lines?”
“That would be me.”
They more or less sat
at the same time, and Madeline gave her a pleasant smile. “What can I do for
you?”
“Well, I . . .” That
was a given, wasn’t it? You didn’t exactly show up at Club Ecstasy—San
Francisco’s exclusive spa, resort, and sex palace for women—to get your taxes
filed. “I understood . . . that is . . . I heard your employees performed
certain services.”
“The men, my sex providers.
They’re capable of satisfying even the most demanding client.”
“Um.” Angela cleared her
throat. “You mean sexually.”
“I did say sex providers,” Madeline answered, as if
it were the most natural thing in the world.
Which it was, of course.
Sex. You couldn’t get much more natural than that.
“Well, there you are
then,” Angela said. “That’s why I’m here.”
“I understand that
part.” Madeline laced her fingers together and rested her hands on the desk. “But
I’ll need a little more information if I’m to pair you with the right man.”
Angela rubbed her palms
against her slacks again. “I’m sure any one of them will be fine.”
“Are you quite
comfortable, Angela?” Madeline’s expression softened. Sympathy with an overlay
of concern. “Can I get you a cup of coffee or tea?”
“I don’t think a
stimulant is a good idea.”
“A glass of wine,
perhaps?” Madeline said.
“Don’t want to dull the
senses, either.”
Madeline rose, walked
around the desk, and sat on its edge. Everything about her posture suggested you can trust me. Let me help. And none
of it felt insincere. Why in hell couldn’t Angela open up and tell the woman
what she needed? Maybe because she hadn’t figured it out herself?
She never failed to
plan things through: starting with an opening hypothesis, then on to systematic
tests, and ending with the conclusion she expected from her experiments. Somehow,
with this exercise, she hadn’t prepared much of anything except for the date
and how much she’d make the check out for.
“A lot of our clients
are uncomfortable on their first visit,” Madeline said.
“There’s nothing to
feel uncomfortable about, is there?”
“Of course not,”
Madeline answered.
“I’m an adult; I have a
PhD. There’s no reason I can’t simply ask for what I want, is there?”
“Then why don’t you?” Madeline’s
expression went from sympathetic to psychotherapeutic, and the whole situation
turned damned awkward.
Angela shot out of her
chair and started pacing. “Sex, sex, sex. There I said it.”
“We both have.” Madeline
sat and watched her walk back and forth.
“The thing is that I
don’t get sex. I understand
everything else in my life: my job, my friends, my hobbies, even my diet. Sex?”
She threw her hands up in the air. “It ought to be simple.”
“Now there you’re
wrong,” Madeline said. “Everything’s complicated with humans but most
especially sex.”
“Animals do it. Female
goes into heat. Male covers female. Offspring appear, and it all starts over
again with the next cycle.” She stopped pacing long enough to stare at Madeline.
“Why can’t I cycle?”
“You’re having
fertility problems?”
“No, of course not. I
won’t need to have children for another two and a half years.”
“Because that’s one
service we don’t provide,” Madeline said. “The men use condoms for everyone’s
protection.”
“I’m not explaining
this very well.”
“I’ll admit you have me
a bit confused.” Madeline nodded toward the visitor’s chair again. After a moment,
Angela sighed and resumed her seat.
“Why don’t you try
explaining your problem to me simply?” Madeline said.
“I don’t have the sex
life I ought to have.”
Madeline bent and
placed her hands over Angela’s. “There’s no ought
to it. There aren’t any rules or quotas.”
“All right. I don’t
have the sex life I want to have.”
“Do you have orgasms?”
Angela’s cheeks grew
warm. She hadn’t counted on having to discuss her shortcomings. She’d figured
she’d get a really good fucking that would magically burst through whatever
barriers stood in the way of her sexual fulfillment. Maybe the man could teach
her a few tricks she could pass along to a partner. The whole process might
take several sessions and cost her a bundle, but she’d enjoy herself. She
hadn’t expected to have to bare her psyche before she even got started. Of
course, not responding to Madeline’s question was an answer in itself.
“I see,” Madeline said
after a bit.
“I have orgasms. Mostly
with my vibrator. Sometimes if a man is good at oral sex.”
“But they aren’t
enough.”
Angela shrugged. “They’re
nice.”
“Oh dear.” Madeline’s
voice dropped an octave. She walked back around the desk, sat, and opened a
drawer. From that, she produced a book bound in leather. She pushed it toward
Angela. “See if any of my men appeal to you.”
Angela set the book in
her lap and leafed through it. Any of Madeline’s men appeal to her? All
of them looked absolutely delicious. The first was tall and blond with an easy
grin. Sort of a surfer dude. Another guy on a motorcycle resembled a bad ass. Probably
a lot of fun in bed, but not someone with whom you could make yourself
vulnerable, and this visit could involve a lot of that. She leafed through more
of them—all ethnicities by the look of things. A few seemed a bit older than
the others. Well dressed and very dignified.
Her gaze caught and
lingered on a man toward the end of the pictures. His eyes captured her
attention. An odd reaction to a photo, but she couldn’t bring herself to look
away. His eyes were a deep brown and curved downward at the corners, giving him
a sad look. No, vulnerable. As if he couldn’t hide his emotions and everything
would be on the surface.
“You’ve found someone,”
Madeline said.
“I think maybe.” She
finally managed to pull her attention from the man’s eyes and read some of the
text. “Brent Delaney.”
“Brent. Yes, of course.
He’d be wonderful for you.”
She delved further into
the combination bio and personality description. Thank heaven there were no
long walks on the beach. Everything she did to improve her sexual response
would remain within these walls. The description did mention he liked classical
music and had a gentle but firm touch.
“Is he tall?” No point
selecting someone short, given her height, no matter how gentle the touch.
“Six three,” Madeline
answered. “The two of you will make a perfect couple.”
“I don’t think we’ll be
a couple.” More like a hookup.
“You can be whatever
you want to be, Angela,” Madeline said. “We offer your perfect fantasy.”
She glanced up from the
picture of Brent Delaney. Madeline met her gaze evenly, as if she really
believed you could find fantasy in a place where you paid for sex. Or anywhere,
for that matter. Erogenous zones, techniques for stimulation—those were the
important things. With the help of a lover for hire, Angela would
systematically study all the logical ways to create good sex. Fantasy had
nothing to do with it.
“Was there anything
particular you had in mind?” Madeline asked.
“Just Brent, I guess.” She
studied his picture again. This time she managed to get past his eyes to his
mouth. The word lush sprang to mind
immediately. He had full lips, especially the bottom one. She could almost
imagine the taste of it. Something like honey or nectar. The image came through
so clearly, she ended up licking her own lips, as if he’d just caressed them.
“I have the perfect
room for you,” Madeline said. “Let me just make a call.”
Madeline picked up her
phone and dialed a few numbers. After a moment, she smiled. “Brent, dear, come
to my office. There’s someone I want you to meet.”
{TXB1}
The man she’d just met—Brent—escorted
Angela down a long corridor over carpets thick enough for her shoes to sink
into them. He kept his hand at the small of her back the whole time; his
fingers splayed over her spine. It was almost a possessive gesture, as if he
cared about her; when ten minutes earlier, he hadn’t known she existed.
Her heart wanted to
skitter around in her chest, but she did her best to keep her breathing even. What
an incredible series of events. In a little while—as soon as she got her nerve
up—she’d be having sex with this stranger. Even more remarkable, her body
seemed to have registered the fact better than her mind. Her nipples had already
tightened, and her clitoris had begun a slow throb.
She’d experienced some
excitement with the mere idea of coming here. What had started out as an
inkling of an idea had grown over the weeks, turning from “I’d never in my
lifetime actually do this, but if I did . . .” to “I can afford to do it if I
cancel that trip to Belize,” to “what kind of man would I want?” The next thing
she’d known, she’d picked up the phone and told the woman at the other end of
the call that her friend, Susan, had referred her.
Now here she stood, outside
what looked like a very expensive hotel room, as Brent Delaney slid the key
card into the slot. When the lock clicked, he opened the door and held it, waiting
for her to enter first. She did not feel like a prisoner on her way to
the gallows as she crossed the threshold, and she certainly had no desire to
turn like a coward and run back down the hallway. She might be holding a little
tension in her shoulders, but anyone would have to find the situation a little
bit odd, right?
Beyond that area
was the bedroom. Large and airy with a four poster bed big enough to sleep a
squadron. French doors appeared to open onto a terrace.
“Wow,” she said.
“She speaks,” Brent
said from behind her. She’d walked into the place and left him behind.
She turned to face him.
She’d hardly dared to glance at him in Madeline’s office for fear of babbling
and making a fool of herself. His picture had been stunning, but the reality .
. . oh, Lord. For a big man, he seemed elegant, not boorish, and his eyes gave
off a warm glow. She had to remind herself to breathe.
“I beg your pardon?”
she asked after several seconds.
“You do talk,” he said.
“I was beginning to wonder.”
“I didn’t know talking
was required,” she replied. “Did you know Einstein didn’t speak until he was
four? Or maybe it was three.”
One corner of his lips
curled upward. “Is that so?”
Man, he had a crooked
smile, too. “Einstein didn’t have anything to say. Or that’s how the story
goes.”
“Must have been scary
for his parents.”
She clasped her hands together
in front of her slacks and then let them fall back by her sides. “For the
longest time it didn’t appear he was going to amount to much of anything.”
“Einstein?” he said.
“One of the greatest
minds of the century.”
“Say, would you like
something to drink?” He went to the wet bar and hefted a decanter of something
alcoholic.
“Me?” She waved a hand.
“No, I’m fine.”
“Uh-huh.” He poured a
few fingers of whatever that was into a tumbler and approached her. Instead of
drinking it, he handed her the glass. “You were saying.”
As he walked around
behind her, she stared into the glass. “I guess there really isn’t any more to
the story. We all know how Einstein turned out.”
He scooped up her hair
and pushed it to one side of her neck so he could press his lips to the curve
of her throat. “He invented relativity.”
“Discovered it, rather.
The theory’s not that hard to understand, really.” Her pulse sped up, and her
nipples hardened to points, although he’d made no move toward her breasts. She
took a sip of the whiskey. Good quality. Smooth, not harsh. She took a bit more
and let it warm her throat as it went down. “Mostly, it’s conceptual, just a
little . . . oh!”
He’d grazed her earlobe
with his teeth, hot breath slipping into her ear. Suddenly, her eyelids grew heavy.
“Math,” she said. “Some
fairly simple algebra.”
“I was bad at that,” he
said.
He was clearly good at
other things. Very, very good. Like using his teeth to make pinpricks of pure
pleasure along the sensitive skin beneath her jaw and then downward to her
collarbone. She took another sip of the liquor and let the vapors fill her
mouth for long seconds before swallowing.
“That’s my girl.” He
took the near-empty glass from her and deposited it somewhere behind her. He’d
found a table or something without leaving her because the sound of the tumbler
settling onto something came through loud and clear.
Then he came back
around to face her. She wasn’t used to feeling dwarfed by people, even men, but
he seemed to tower over her. With a solid build, he could have played football.
But his facial features fit better with someone more sensitive. A poet or
actor, perhaps. Those deep, soft eyes and that full mouth. He even had long
eyelashes. She could stare into his face forever, and actually, she’d been
doing that for a whole minute.
“Find anything
interesting?” he said.
“No, well, yes.”
“Look, Angela, we don’t
have to do anything you don’t want. We can talk about famous scientists all
night,” he said. “Although, that’d be an odd way to spend your money.”
“Oh, I want to do . . .”
She stopped herself before she came out with a silly euphemism. “I want to have
sex. Lots of it. In different positions.”
“That’s what I’m here
for.”
“But I’ll be honest
with you.” She raised her chin and looked him in the eyes. “I have problems
performing.”
He stared at her for a
moment. “Women don’t perform. They enjoy.”
“A matter of semantics.
A woman my age should have multiple orgasms during a full-coital encounter.”
“Really?” He crossed
his arms over his chest. “How many?”
“Five is probably too
many to expect, but certainly more than one.”
“That leaves two,
three, or four,” he said. “Which is it?”
“Three, I suppose.”
“And you haven’t been
having three, during a . . . what was it you called it?”
“Full-coital
encounter,” she answered.
“You’ll excuse me for
thinking that sounds like something you bill your health insurance to cover.” He
caught her arms and rubbed his palms from her elbows to her shoulders and back.
“You can relax, Angela. I’m used to nonorgasmic women.”
She pulled away. “I
didn’t say I was nonorgasmic. I have orgasms.”
“Then what were we
talking about?”
“I don’t have enough of
them, and I don’t have them the right way.”
He tipped his head and
looked at her as if she were crazy. “There’s a right way to have an orgasm?”
“Come on. You know what
I mean.” Her feet wanted to pace, but she made them stay where they were. And
she stood straight, not backing away from him. “I’m near my sexual prime. If
I’m going to fulfill my full potential, I should be making more progress.”
All right, she would
pace, but just so she could think. Movement always helped, even if she did come
off looking a little frantic. She went to the stereo and turned around. “I finished college at nineteen. Graduate school at twenty-three.
I have my professional life mapped out. I eat a healthy diet and exercise.”
“And sex isn’t keeping
up with your plan.”
“Exactly. I’m so glad
you understand.”
“I’m afraid I do,” he
said. “You see, sex isn’t going to keep up with your plan or anyone else’s. Sex
is what it is.”
She put her hands on
her hips. “What’s that supposed to mean?”
“It’s the one thing you
can’t force. You can study to pass a test. You can diet yourself thin. You can
save to buy the car of your dreams. But you can’t make sex behave the way you
want it to. You have to let it show the way.”
“Is that supposed to be
Zen or something?”
“I don’t know Zen. I do
know sex.” He went to her and put his big hands on her shoulders. “You can’t
steer it. You have to let it steer you.”
“That’s silly.”
“Oh, really? Ask any guy
who ever had an embarrassing erection if sex didn’t take control. Women have
automatic responses, too. You can just hide them better.”
Like her nipples
getting hard? They hadn’t softened yet, and they weren’t likely to with him
standing so close. And her cheeks had warmed. He’d have to notice the flush of
her skin.
“You might be having
some of those responses now,” he said. “Or am I wrong?”
As tempting as it might
be to deny her reaction to him, she didn’t deal in dishonesty. Besides, if he
was going to help her with her problem, he’d need to read her physiological
signs correctly. “I am responding.”
“Want to tell me
exactly how?”
“I can’t quite seem to
catch my breath.” Odd she hadn’t noticed before, but the air in the room seemed
thick and hard to pull into her lungs. And weirder than that, she’d had the
same sensation she’d had looking at his picture: that she could taste him even
though they’d never kissed. Again, she ended up licking her lips.
In response, his gaze
fell to her mouth and stayed there as if he found it fascinating. His eyes took
on an almost hungry expression. He wanted her, and she could have him any which
way that popped into her head.
This time, he wasn’t a
photograph. He stood before her in the glorious flesh, and she’d only have to lean
into him to see if he’d really taste like honey. So, she did. She rested her
hand against his chest and tipped her face upward. He made her wait. Not more
than a few seconds, but enough time to let the anticipation build. This would
be the kind of kiss you saw in movies or read about in books. Something she’d
never experienced but always dreamed about.
When he finally crossed
the last few inches and placed his lips on hers, reality burst like a flash of
lightning in her brain. He did taste sweet, although not like anything she’d
ever savored before. She sampled him slowly, but when he cupped the back of her
head, tilting it so their mouths fit, she took more and more of him. She hadn’t
misjudged the softness of the lower lip, so she nibbled on it gently before
brushing it with her tongue. That must have issued an invitation, because he
responded with his own tongue seeking entrance to her mouth.
God, he was
intoxicating. No matter how much she took, she needed more. Wrapping her arms
around his shoulders, she pulled herself as close against him as she could
manage. She’d shared kisses with a lover before but not like this one. So
all-encompassing, from the sweetness of his lips to the ragged sound of his
breathing to the firm muscles beneath her palms. He even smelled good, a
combination of warm sunshine and human male.
His arms went around
her, tugging her closer against his hard body. She was tall, but he was taller,
and he made her feel small and delicate. Cherished. After a few more moments of
pure hedonism, he ended the kiss, resting the side of his face against hers. His
breath came hard and fast, as if he’d been running. Her own was just as
frantic, and her pulse pounded in her ears. As kisses went, that one was in a
class by itself. Good Lord in heaven.
She pulled back and
gazed into his face in search of answers. What had just happened here? Sure,
she’d expected him to be good in bed. That’s what he did professionally, after
all. But she hadn’t expected him to dismantle her with no more than a kiss.
“See what I mean?” he
said.
“Mean?” He expected her
to remember a conversation that had taken place a few minutes before he’d
rearranged her neurons?
“About sex. You need to
let it take over.”
“I’m afraid that’s more
easily said than done.”
He kissed the tip of
her nose. “You just did a pretty good imitation.”
“Due to your skill.”
“I’d like to take
credit.” He gave her a grin. “But it was all chemistry.”
“I’m a physicist.”
“Do tell.” He reached
to her blouse and started in on the buttons. Of course, she’d get naked, but
she hadn’t considered that he might undress her. She hadn’t considered much of
anything at all, when you got right down to it. Maybe she’d thought of this as
a visit to the doctor’s office where someone would leave her alone to get into
a paper drape.
Instead, she had a
drop-dead gorgeous man taking great care with some buttons, as if he might tear
one off if he lost control. And that in itself made for some hot fantasy. Imagine
this big guy so consumed with lust for her, he’d rip her clothing to get at her
now. Having a man devoted to your pleasure and so insanely aroused that
he took you, hard and fast, was a major turn-on. Maybe she should ask Brent to
play caveman. Or maybe she’d wait to see if he did it on his own.
He didn’t turn into a raging
beast, though, but he kept undressing her methodically. First the blouse, which
he removed and turned to drape over a chair, but she took it from him and
dropped it onto the floor.
His eyebrow went up. “In
a rush?”
“It’s just clothing.”
“You’ll look rumpled
when you leave.”
“So much the better,”
she said. “It’ll prove I got my money’s worth.”
“You’re nuts,
professor.”
“I know.”
He reached behind her
to unfasten her bra. When he had it off, he held it between his thumb and
forefinger before dropping it onto her blouse. A cute game except for the fact
her breasts were now uncovered, and the peaks stood as stiff proof that this
was more than a pleasant encounter, like a little necking on a first date. He
covered her breasts with his hands, squeezing gently. Already primed by their
kiss, her libido roared back to life. The nipples became ultra sensitive
pressed against his palms, and the sensation traveled through her, past her
belly to her sex.
“Sweet,” he said, as he
lifted her breasts and rubbed his thumbs over the tips.
“You must compliment
all your clients.”
“Only honestly,” he
said. “Don’t you think your breasts are beautiful?”
“I guess.”
“Are you really that
out of touch with your own body?” He bent and took a nipple into his mouth. He
continued toying with the other one as he sucked on the first, his cheeks
working. The look on his face was almost angelic; his eyes closed, and his
lashes fanned his cheeks. And oh, the sensations he created. Zingers of
pleasure speeding along her nerves to every erogenous zone on her body. She
wobbled a bit and clutched his head for balance.
Chuckling, he
straightened and pulled her against him. Somehow, he’d melted her bones from
the inside out, and she might have fallen if he hadn’t held her.
“Bed, I think,” he
said.
She merely nodded
against his chest. Before she could guess his intent, he’d bent and scooped her
up into his arms.
“Careful with your
back,” she said, clutching his neck. “I’m heavy.”
“Light as a feather.”
“I’m five ten, you
dummy.” And not overly slender, although she wouldn’t mention that aloud. If he
wanted to play he-man, he’d have only himself to blame if he threw his back out.
Only please not before they’d had crazy monkey sex.
He didn’t seem to
notice her weight but walked to the bed and laid her on the comforter. After
removing her shoes and knee-highs, he unbuttoned her slacks and slid the zipper
down. Her panties came off along with the slacks, and in a moment, she lay
completely naked.
Studying her as if she
were some exotic creature, he laid his hand on her belly; the fingers spread so
one almost reached into the curls over her sex. An odd gesture, almost a
claiming, staking out his territory. Only what did he see when he looked at
her?
“You’re beautiful,” he
said after a long moment.
“Honesty.”
“Total honesty,” he
said. “I can’t wait to fuck you.”
She let out a laugh. She
knew that word, of course, and used it occasionally, especially if someone
really pissed her off. It had never sounded sexy before, but the way he used it—as
if he couldn’t help himself—brought up the whole issue of control again. They’d
gone beyond niceties, and now, they’d, well, fuck.
After ditching his own
shoes and socks, he rose and jerked his sweater over his head, exposing his
naked chest. What a specimen. His jeans rode low on his hips, giving her a view
of him from shoulders to pelvis. A sculptor might have fashioned him as the
ideal male, from the cords of muscle in his neck to the wide collarbone and
below. Firm pectorals, flat belly, and, yes, the outline of a very large
erection straining against his fly.
Staring at him, her
mouth went dry. Her pussy had a completely different reaction, and it was a
good thing, too. If she was going to take all of that inside her, she’d
better be lubricated. And there was no way she’d miss out on a single inch of
him.
He gave her a knowing
smile as he unfastened his fly, one button at a time. He’d worn nothing under
his sweater, and the same went for his pants. When he pushed them down and
stepped out of them, he was gloriously naked. Six foot three of prime male Homo sapiens, with a cock that would
make a porn star proud. All of that for her, as long and as often as she wanted,
for hours and hours.
When he joined her on
the bed, she rolled onto her side so she could run her palms over him. Along
his shoulders and over his chest. She flicked her thumbs over his flat nipples,
registering his slight tremor in response. Farther down, she explored the
planes of his abdomen, but of course, her true destination lay lower. She
curled her fingers around his shaft, savoring the velvet feel of him. Underneath
he was as hard as steel. When she pumped him, he closed his eyes in bliss, and
his breath caught. What a toy he was: hers to play with and enjoy the results. She
couldn’t stop petting him, from the bulbous head to the sac beneath. Ever so
gently, she stroked that with her free hand.
With a groan, he
covered her hand with his, stilling it. “You’ll want to leave me some control.”
What a delight that she
could affect him so powerfully. “You’re a professional.”
“I’m a man first, and
you’re making me incredibly hot.”
She bit her lip. “You
really find me sexy?”
“Don’t you ever doubt
it.” He rolled her onto her back and slid his body over hers. Though he held
himself on his elbows, keeping most of his weight off her, his skin pressed
against hers. What luxury. She ran her hands under his arms and to his back, so
she could stroke it as he lowered his face to hers.
This time when they
kissed, nothing separated them. Nothing at all. She could bask in his warmth
while his lips launched an assault on her senses. Pass after pass of his mouth
on hers soon had her brain reeling. Just enough pressure to make her want more
and more, and all the time, the evidence of his arousal pressed against her
pelvis.
By the time he finished
with her mouth and slid lower, leaving a trail of kisses over her throat, she
was struggling for air. She stroked his hair, his shoulders, anything she could
reach. And then, he was sliding lower, taking a neglected nipple between his
lips. Arching her back, she pressed herself up to him. Offering and demanding
at the same time.
The neural circuits
clicked and connected, sending a charge to all the sensitive places on her body:
to her pussy, of course, but also to the curves behind her knees. Even to the
arches of her feet. With only the gentle sucking at her breast, he could arouse
her entire body.
Then he moved lower,
his skin gliding over hers as he pressed kisses all over her ribs and downward.
Easing her legs apart, he made a place for himself between her thighs. Oh, God,
he was really going to do that. Cunnilingus, oral sex. The ultimate a
man could do for a woman. Her heart nearly stopped in her chest, and for a
moment, she didn’t breathe. If he teased her clitoris with his tongue and she
still didn’t come, what in hell would she say to him?
You were fabulous, but I guess it’s not my night?
It’s not you; it’s me?
And still he went lower,
until his face lay only inches away from her pussy. Now or never time. Countdown
to liftoff. Probably.
She let herself breathe
again. Evenly. And she relaxed her shoulders. But when he parted the lips of
her sex and made a single pass with his tongue, she gasped.
He lifted his head. “Something
wrong?”
“No. I’m great. Just
great.”
“I won’t do this if you
don’t want me to,” he said.
“Please. I do. Really.”
“Okay.” He gave her a
smile. “Relax and enjoy.”
Enjoy, she could manage.
Relax, well, they’d see about that.
He went back to work,
this time stroking her pussy lips gently. Just a brush of his fingertips. Clever
man. Not pushing but enticing. And honestly, how could any woman resist such a
tender caress on her most sensitive flesh? With a sigh, she sank back into the
mattress, closed her eyes, and let him proceed any way that came into his head.
After a bit, his touch landed on the tip of her clitoris, and this time the
jolt that went through her contained nothing but pure pleasure.
“Ohhhhh.” Her own
voice, low and thick with need—she’d never heard herself like that before.
He took that as his cue
and swiped his tongue over her again, from the entrance to her pussy upward,
lingering on her clit. Heaven, pure heaven. Her breathing became ragged enough
to fill the space around them, and she reached down and burrowed her fingers in
his hair to signal her approval. And a silent plea for more.
She needn’t have begged
because he continued. He flicked his tongue over her clit, circled it, and
pressed it. And oh, how she responded. Tiny pricks of light appeared on the
backs of her eyelids as her arousal went to simmer. Her whole body grew warm
and then hot. And he kept going, never letting up on the pressure, building
such a fire of need inside her, she ought to go up in flames.
This time, she’d come. This
time, she wouldn’t be able to hold back. She could do it. Nothing would stop
her.
And then, his finger
probed her entrance, pressing inside and retreating. A whole new set of
sensations. She’d already become wet, and as he slid his finger fully inside
her, more moisture collected between her thighs. Unbelievable pleasure, but how
much more wonderful to have his amazing cock inside her when she came. Stretching
her and filling her. That would have to be the ultimate.
Oh, yeah. Shit, yes. Now.
“I’m ready,” she
whispered.
He lifted his head
again, and she opened her eyes to look at him.
“You sure?” he said. “I
can finish this first.”
“I want you inside me.”
“All right, then.” He
swung his feet over the side of the bed and opened a drawer in the small table.
Quickly, he tore the square packet open and rolled the condom over his cock.
Still holding his
weight off her, he settled himself between her legs. Now she could reach his
shaft and guide the head of his cock between her lips. He eased himself in
slowly, allowing her to savor the passage of each inch. In truth, she had to
adjust to his size, but after a few heart-melting moments, he was fully
embedded in her. They stared into each other’s eyes for a long second, and then
he pulled nearly out and surged back into her.
Lord, have mercy. Her
vision went unfocussed with pleasure, and she closed her eyes. As she had
before, she ran her arms under his and back up so her palms fell on his
shoulders. His muscles tensed with the effort to support his weight. But down
below . . . oh, man . . . down below, the constant thrust and retreat created
havoc inside her. Never in her life had she experienced such total possession.
He groaned into her ear.
“So tight.”
“Is that good?”
“Amazing,” he said.
“You’re amazing, too.”
“I just hope I last.”
He would, certainly. He
was a professional, and he wouldn’t leave her hanging. “I have faith in you.”
He laughed, but the
sound came out strained. His movements grew faster as he pushed himself into
her. Each thrust jostled her clitoris, and the haze of deep arousal clouded her
mind again. Yes, she’d come now. She only had to work a bit harder. Reach for
it. Visualize it. Let it happen.
“Angela?” he whispered.
“Yes, Brent.”
“Are you—”
“Yes. Just don’t stop.”
Damn it. Damn it all to hell. He was perfect. He’d done everything right. She’d
done everything right. Why wouldn’t it happen?
“God!” he shouted. After
a few more massive thrusts, he stiffened in her arms. He’d climaxed, of course.
She’d lied to him, telling him she was going to come, so she could hardly be
upset with him. So, when he sank onto her, she held him and stroked his back.
Maybe he hadn’t noticed
her lack of orgasm. They could try again later. Something different. The
experiment wouldn’t end up a total failure.
After a moment, he
rolled off her onto his side and pulled her against him. “You didn’t come.”
“Maybe I did,” she said.
“Sort of.”
“There’s no sort of
where orgasms are concerned. You either come or you don’t, and you didn’t.”
“It’s not your fault.” She
burrowed her head under his chin, avoiding his gaze. “You were wonderful.”
“Not wonderful enough,
obviously.”
“It’s no big deal.”
“Angela.” He slipped a
finger under her chin and tipped her head back so he could stare into her eyes.
“I’m going to take care of it.”
“How?”
With his trademark
gentle touch, he eased her onto her back and kissed her again. Such a
consummate lover, he wove a veil of lust around her, the heat of his body
warming her right down to her toes. His hand went exploring, over one breast,
past her belly, and landing at the juncture of her thighs. Now when his fingers
went between her pussy lips, they made wet sounds. She could have worried about
that but his finger landed immediately on her clitoris.
“I should have known
better,” he said. “I should have finished you before we fucked.”
She relaxed into the
situation. The worst had happened. She’d tried and failed to have sex the way
most women did. She might as well accept that failure and allow herself to
enjoy his touch now. He clearly knew what he was doing. In a matter of seconds,
he had her back to breathless and throbbing. She wouldn’t interfere.
“Better?” he said.
“Uh-huh.”
“You’re not going to
stop me this time and tell me what to do, are you?”
“Nuh-huh.”
“I’m going to hold you
to that,” he said.
“Brent?”
“Yeah?”
“Stop talking.”
To his credit, he did. To
his even greater credit, he’d found the exact pressure and rhythm to use on her
clit to send her into the heavenly plateau just before orgasm. She wouldn’t
have to try for anything here. No reaching or visualizing or having to force
herself to relax. From here on, she only needed to let him continue to work his
magic. He showed no inclination to stop but continued the press, press, press
that would soon have her flying to the moon.
She hadn’t made a
mistake coming here. Everything would turn out right. She’d have this orgasm
and another and another. Already, she’d come so close. She ought to fight it
off—let the moment linger—but in the end, the pleasure was too intense to
resist, and she had to surrender.
The
sensations wound in on themselves, tightening to a ball in the pit of her belly.
One more second and another, and she’d burst. The climax built and then
exploded inside her, rushing everywhere as her hips jerked upward and she cried
out. The spasms traveled the length of her pussy, crashing over each other.
Brent stayed with her, still pressing and drawing the orgasm out. When she
finally finished, he moved his hand and let her float off on her own personal
cloud. She only vaguely registered that he’d pulled her against him again and
that the scent of honey clung to both of them.Chapter One
Dr. Angela Carter
couldn’t quite make herself sit down. Not that the proprietor’s office at Club
Ecstasy wasn’t a welcoming place. Tastefully decorated with antique furniture and
modern reproductions, the room could have come from a stylish,
expensive magazine. Nothing gave away the ultimate purpose of the place:
connecting female clients with men who provided very special sexual services. And
certainly no one from her lab would have followed her here to watch her pace
the oriental carpet. So why couldn’t she simply take a seat and wait to see
what would happen? Lord knew she’d paid enough for the privilege.
“I was early.” Angela
ran her palms along the sides of her slacks. No need, really. Her hands weren’t
clammy.
“You must be Dr.
Carter.” The woman extended her hand.
“Angela, please.” When
they shook, the other woman’s hand almost disappeared inside Angela’s. Even
though the proprietor stood nearly as tall as Angela, she still managed to
appear delicate. Small boned, perhaps, like the girls in high school who’d
always made Angela feel, well, big. And awkward. And brainy. But why in hell
did any of this remind her of the worst four years of her life?
“I’m Madeline Shaw,”
the woman said as she gestured to a chair on the visitor’s side of the desk.
“Shaw?” Angela repeated.
“Of the clothing and perfume lines?”
“That would be me.”
They more or less sat
at the same time, and Madeline gave her a pleasant smile. “What can I do for
you?”
“Well, I . . .” That
was a given, wasn’t it? You didn’t exactly show up at Club Ecstasy—San
Francisco’s exclusive spa, resort, and sex palace for women—to get your taxes
filed. “I understood . . . that is . . . I heard your employees performed
certain services.”
“The men, my sex providers.
They’re capable of satisfying even the most demanding client.”
“Um.” Angela cleared her
throat. “You mean sexually.”
“I did say sex providers,” Madeline answered, as if
it were the most natural thing in the world.
Which it was, of course.
Sex. You couldn’t get much more natural than that.
“Well, there you are
then,” Angela said. “That’s why I’m here.”
“I understand that
part.” Madeline laced her fingers together and rested her hands on the desk. “But
I’ll need a little more information if I’m to pair you with the right man.”
Angela rubbed her palms
against her slacks again. “I’m sure any one of them will be fine.”
“Are you quite
comfortable, Angela?” Madeline’s expression softened. Sympathy with an overlay
of concern. “Can I get you a cup of coffee or tea?”
“I don’t think a
stimulant is a good idea.”
“A glass of wine,
perhaps?” Madeline said.
“Don’t want to dull the
senses, either.”
Madeline rose, walked
around the desk, and sat on its edge. Everything about her posture suggested you can trust me. Let me help. And none
of it felt insincere. Why in hell couldn’t Angela open up and tell the woman
what she needed? Maybe because she hadn’t figured it out herself?
She never failed to
plan things through: starting with an opening hypothesis, then on to systematic
tests, and ending with the conclusion she expected from her experiments. Somehow,
with this exercise, she hadn’t prepared much of anything except for the date
and how much she’d make the check out for.
“A lot of our clients
are uncomfortable on their first visit,” Madeline said.
“There’s nothing to
feel uncomfortable about, is there?”
“Of course not,”
Madeline answered.
“I’m an adult; I have a
PhD. There’s no reason I can’t simply ask for what I want, is there?”
“Then why don’t you?” Madeline’s
expression went from sympathetic to psychotherapeutic, and the whole situation
turned damned awkward.
Angela shot out of her
chair and started pacing. “Sex, sex, sex. There I said it.”
“We both have.” Madeline
sat and watched her walk back and forth.
“The thing is that I
don’t get sex. I understand
everything else in my life: my job, my friends, my hobbies, even my diet. Sex?”
She threw her hands up in the air. “It ought to be simple.”
“Now there you’re
wrong,” Madeline said. “Everything’s complicated with humans but most
especially sex.”
“Animals do it. Female
goes into heat. Male covers female. Offspring appear, and it all starts over
again with the next cycle.” She stopped pacing long enough to stare at Madeline.
“Why can’t I cycle?”
“You’re having
fertility problems?”
“No, of course not. I
won’t need to have children for another two and a half years.”
“Because that’s one
service we don’t provide,” Madeline said. “The men use condoms for everyone’s
protection.”
“I’m not explaining
this very well.”
“I’ll admit you have me
a bit confused.” Madeline nodded toward the visitor’s chair again. After a moment,
Angela sighed and resumed her seat.
“Why don’t you try
explaining your problem to me simply?” Madeline said.
“I don’t have the sex
life I ought to have.”
Madeline bent and
placed her hands over Angela’s. “There’s no ought
to it. There aren’t any rules or quotas.”
“All right. I don’t
have the sex life I want to have.”
“Do you have orgasms?”
Angela’s cheeks grew
warm. She hadn’t counted on having to discuss her shortcomings. She’d figured
she’d get a really good fucking that would magically burst through whatever
barriers stood in the way of her sexual fulfillment. Maybe the man could teach
her a few tricks she could pass along to a partner. The whole process might
take several sessions and cost her a bundle, but she’d enjoy herself. She
hadn’t expected to have to bare her psyche before she even got started. Of
course, not responding to Madeline’s question was an answer in itself.
“I see,” Madeline said
after a bit.
“I have orgasms. Mostly
with my vibrator. Sometimes if a man is good at oral sex.”
“But they aren’t
enough.”
Angela shrugged. “They’re
nice.”
“Oh dear.” Madeline’s
voice dropped an octave. She walked back around the desk, sat, and opened a
drawer. From that, she produced a book bound in leather. She pushed it toward
Angela. “See if any of my men appeal to you.”
Angela set the book in
her lap and leafed through it. Any of Madeline’s men appeal to her? All
of them looked absolutely delicious. The first was tall and blond with an easy
grin. Sort of a surfer dude. Another guy on a motorcycle resembled a bad ass. Probably
a lot of fun in bed, but not someone with whom you could make yourself
vulnerable, and this visit could involve a lot of that. She leafed through more
of them—all ethnicities by the look of things. A few seemed a bit older than
the others. Well dressed and very dignified.
Her gaze caught and
lingered on a man toward the end of the pictures. His eyes captured her
attention. An odd reaction to a photo, but she couldn’t bring herself to look
away. His eyes were a deep brown and curved downward at the corners, giving him
a sad look. No, vulnerable. As if he couldn’t hide his emotions and everything
would be on the surface.
“You’ve found someone,”
Madeline said.
“I think maybe.” She
finally managed to pull her attention from the man’s eyes and read some of the
text. “Brent Delaney.”
“Brent. Yes, of course.
He’d be wonderful for you.”
She delved further into
the combination bio and personality description. Thank heaven there were no
long walks on the beach. Everything she did to improve her sexual response
would remain within these walls. The description did mention he liked classical
music and had a gentle but firm touch.
“Is he tall?” No point
selecting someone short, given her height, no matter how gentle the touch.
“Six three,” Madeline
answered. “The two of you will make a perfect couple.”
“I don’t think we’ll be
a couple.” More like a hookup.
“You can be whatever
you want to be, Angela,” Madeline said. “We offer your perfect fantasy.”
She glanced up from the
picture of Brent Delaney. Madeline met her gaze evenly, as if she really
believed you could find fantasy in a place where you paid for sex. Or anywhere,
for that matter. Erogenous zones, techniques for stimulation—those were the
important things. With the help of a lover for hire, Angela would
systematically study all the logical ways to create good sex. Fantasy had
nothing to do with it.
“Was there anything
particular you had in mind?” Madeline asked.
“Just Brent, I guess.” She
studied his picture again. This time she managed to get past his eyes to his
mouth. The word lush sprang to mind
immediately. He had full lips, especially the bottom one. She could almost
imagine the taste of it. Something like honey or nectar. The image came through
so clearly, she ended up licking her own lips, as if he’d just caressed them.
“I have the perfect
room for you,” Madeline said. “Let me just make a call.”
Madeline picked up her
phone and dialed a few numbers. After a moment, she smiled. “Brent, dear, come
to my office. There’s someone I want you to meet.”
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The man she’d just met—Brent—escorted
Angela down a long corridor over carpets thick enough for her shoes to sink
into them. He kept his hand at the small of her back the whole time; his
fingers splayed over her spine. It was almost a possessive gesture, as if he
cared about her; when ten minutes earlier, he hadn’t known she existed.
Her heart wanted to
skitter around in her chest, but she did her best to keep her breathing even. What
an incredible series of events. In a little while—as soon as she got her nerve
up—she’d be having sex with this stranger. Even more remarkable, her body
seemed to have registered the fact better than her mind. Her nipples had already
tightened, and her clitoris had begun a slow throb.
She’d experienced some
excitement with the mere idea of coming here. What had started out as an
inkling of an idea had grown over the weeks, turning from “I’d never in my
lifetime actually do this, but if I did . . .” to “I can afford to do it if I
cancel that trip to Belize,” to “what kind of man would I want?” The next thing
she’d known, she’d picked up the phone and told the woman at the other end of
the call that her friend, Susan, had referred her.
Now here she stood, outside
what looked like a very expensive hotel room, as Brent Delaney slid the key
card into the slot. When the lock clicked, he opened the door and held it, waiting
for her to enter first. She did not feel like a prisoner on her way to
the gallows as she crossed the threshold, and she certainly had no desire to
turn like a coward and run back down the hallway. She might be holding a little
tension in her shoulders, but anyone would have to find the situation a little
bit odd, right?
Beyond that area
was the bedroom. Large and airy with a four poster bed big enough to sleep a
squadron. French doors appeared to open onto a terrace.
“Wow,” she said.
“She speaks,” Brent
said from behind her. She’d walked into the place and left him behind.
She turned to face him.
She’d hardly dared to glance at him in Madeline’s office for fear of babbling
and making a fool of herself. His picture had been stunning, but the reality .
. . oh, Lord. For a big man, he seemed elegant, not boorish, and his eyes gave
off a warm glow. She had to remind herself to breathe.
“I beg your pardon?”
she asked after several seconds.
“You do talk,” he said.
“I was beginning to wonder.”
“I didn’t know talking
was required,” she replied. “Did you know Einstein didn’t speak until he was
four? Or maybe it was three.”
One corner of his lips
curled upward. “Is that so?”
Man, he had a crooked
smile, too. “Einstein didn’t have anything to say. Or that’s how the story
goes.”
“Must have been scary
for his parents.”
She clasped her hands together
in front of her slacks and then let them fall back by her sides. “For the
longest time it didn’t appear he was going to amount to much of anything.”
“Einstein?” he said.
“One of the greatest
minds of the century.”
“Say, would you like
something to drink?” He went to the wet bar and hefted a decanter of something
alcoholic.
“Me?” She waved a hand.
“No, I’m fine.”
“Uh-huh.” He poured a
few fingers of whatever that was into a tumbler and approached her. Instead of
drinking it, he handed her the glass. “You were saying.”
As he walked around
behind her, she stared into the glass. “I guess there really isn’t any more to
the story. We all know how Einstein turned out.”
He scooped up her hair
and pushed it to one side of her neck so he could press his lips to the curve
of her throat. “He invented relativity.”
“Discovered it, rather.
The theory’s not that hard to understand, really.” Her pulse sped up, and her
nipples hardened to points, although he’d made no move toward her breasts. She
took a sip of the whiskey. Good quality. Smooth, not harsh. She took a bit more
and let it warm her throat as it went down. “Mostly, it’s conceptual, just a
little . . . oh!”
He’d grazed her earlobe
with his teeth, hot breath slipping into her ear. Suddenly, her eyelids grew heavy.
“Math,” she said. “Some
fairly simple algebra.”
“I was bad at that,” he
said.
He was clearly good at
other things. Very, very good. Like using his teeth to make pinpricks of pure
pleasure along the sensitive skin beneath her jaw and then downward to her
collarbone. She took another sip of the liquor and let the vapors fill her
mouth for long seconds before swallowing.
“That’s my girl.” He
took the near-empty glass from her and deposited it somewhere behind her. He’d
found a table or something without leaving her because the sound of the tumbler
settling onto something came through loud and clear.
Then he came back
around to face her. She wasn’t used to feeling dwarfed by people, even men, but
he seemed to tower over her. With a solid build, he could have played football.
But his facial features fit better with someone more sensitive. A poet or
actor, perhaps. Those deep, soft eyes and that full mouth. He even had long
eyelashes. She could stare into his face forever, and actually, she’d been
doing that for a whole minute.
“Find anything
interesting?” he said.
“No, well, yes.”
“Look, Angela, we don’t
have to do anything you don’t want. We can talk about famous scientists all
night,” he said. “Although, that’d be an odd way to spend your money.”
“Oh, I want to do . . .”
She stopped herself before she came out with a silly euphemism. “I want to have
sex. Lots of it. In different positions.”
“That’s what I’m here
for.”
“But I’ll be honest
with you.” She raised her chin and looked him in the eyes. “I have problems
performing.”
He stared at her for a
moment. “Women don’t perform. They enjoy.”
“A matter of semantics.
A woman my age should have multiple orgasms during a full-coital encounter.”
“Really?” He crossed
his arms over his chest. “How many?”
“Five is probably too
many to expect, but certainly more than one.”
“That leaves two,
three, or four,” he said. “Which is it?”
“Three, I suppose.”
“And you haven’t been
having three, during a . . . what was it you called it?”
“Full-coital
encounter,” she answered.
“You’ll excuse me for
thinking that sounds like something you bill your health insurance to cover.” He
caught her arms and rubbed his palms from her elbows to her shoulders and back.
“You can relax, Angela. I’m used to nonorgasmic women.”
She pulled away. “I
didn’t say I was nonorgasmic. I have orgasms.”
“Then what were we
talking about?”
“I don’t have enough of
them, and I don’t have them the right way.”
He tipped his head and
looked at her as if she were crazy. “There’s a right way to have an orgasm?”
“Come on. You know what
I mean.” Her feet wanted to pace, but she made them stay where they were. And
she stood straight, not backing away from him. “I’m near my sexual prime. If
I’m going to fulfill my full potential, I should be making more progress.”
All right, she would
pace, but just so she could think. Movement always helped, even if she did come
off looking a little frantic. She went to the stereo and turned around. “I finished college at nineteen. Graduate school at twenty-three.
I have my professional life mapped out. I eat a healthy diet and exercise.”
“And sex isn’t keeping
up with your plan.”
“Exactly. I’m so glad
you understand.”
“I’m afraid I do,” he
said. “You see, sex isn’t going to keep up with your plan or anyone else’s. Sex
is what it is.”
She put her hands on
her hips. “What’s that supposed to mean?”
“It’s the one thing you
can’t force. You can study to pass a test. You can diet yourself thin. You can
save to buy the car of your dreams. But you can’t make sex behave the way you
want it to. You have to let it show the way.”
“Is that supposed to be
Zen or something?”
“I don’t know Zen. I do
know sex.” He went to her and put his big hands on her shoulders. “You can’t
steer it. You have to let it steer you.”
“That’s silly.”
“Oh, really? Ask any guy
who ever had an embarrassing erection if sex didn’t take control. Women have
automatic responses, too. You can just hide them better.”
Like her nipples
getting hard? They hadn’t softened yet, and they weren’t likely to with him
standing so close. And her cheeks had warmed. He’d have to notice the flush of
her skin.
“You might be having
some of those responses now,” he said. “Or am I wrong?”
As tempting as it might
be to deny her reaction to him, she didn’t deal in dishonesty. Besides, if he
was going to help her with her problem, he’d need to read her physiological
signs correctly. “I am responding.”
“Want to tell me
exactly how?”
“I can’t quite seem to
catch my breath.” Odd she hadn’t noticed before, but the air in the room seemed
thick and hard to pull into her lungs. And weirder than that, she’d had the
same sensation she’d had looking at his picture: that she could taste him even
though they’d never kissed. Again, she ended up licking her lips.
In response, his gaze
fell to her mouth and stayed there as if he found it fascinating. His eyes took
on an almost hungry expression. He wanted her, and she could have him any which
way that popped into her head.
This time, he wasn’t a
photograph. He stood before her in the glorious flesh, and she’d only have to lean
into him to see if he’d really taste like honey. So, she did. She rested her
hand against his chest and tipped her face upward. He made her wait. Not more
than a few seconds, but enough time to let the anticipation build. This would
be the kind of kiss you saw in movies or read about in books. Something she’d
never experienced but always dreamed about.
When he finally crossed
the last few inches and placed his lips on hers, reality burst like a flash of
lightning in her brain. He did taste sweet, although not like anything she’d
ever savored before. She sampled him slowly, but when he cupped the back of her
head, tilting it so their mouths fit, she took more and more of him. She hadn’t
misjudged the softness of the lower lip, so she nibbled on it gently before
brushing it with her tongue. That must have issued an invitation, because he
responded with his own tongue seeking entrance to her mouth.
God, he was
intoxicating. No matter how much she took, she needed more. Wrapping her arms
around his shoulders, she pulled herself as close against him as she could
manage. She’d shared kisses with a lover before but not like this one. So
all-encompassing, from the sweetness of his lips to the ragged sound of his
breathing to the firm muscles beneath her palms. He even smelled good, a
combination of warm sunshine and human male.
His arms went around
her, tugging her closer against his hard body. She was tall, but he was taller,
and he made her feel small and delicate. Cherished. After a few more moments of
pure hedonism, he ended the kiss, resting the side of his face against hers. His
breath came hard and fast, as if he’d been running. Her own was just as
frantic, and her pulse pounded in her ears. As kisses went, that one was in a
class by itself. Good Lord in heaven.
She pulled back and
gazed into his face in search of answers. What had just happened here? Sure,
she’d expected him to be good in bed. That’s what he did professionally, after
all. But she hadn’t expected him to dismantle her with no more than a kiss.
“See what I mean?” he
said.
“Mean?” He expected her
to remember a conversation that had taken place a few minutes before he’d
rearranged her neurons?
“About sex. You need to
let it take over.”
“I’m afraid that’s more
easily said than done.”
He kissed the tip of
her nose. “You just did a pretty good imitation.”
“Due to your skill.”
“I’d like to take
credit.” He gave her a grin. “But it was all chemistry.”
“I’m a physicist.”
“Do tell.” He reached
to her blouse and started in on the buttons. Of course, she’d get naked, but
she hadn’t considered that he might undress her. She hadn’t considered much of
anything at all, when you got right down to it. Maybe she’d thought of this as
a visit to the doctor’s office where someone would leave her alone to get into
a paper drape.
Instead, she had a
drop-dead gorgeous man taking great care with some buttons, as if he might tear
one off if he lost control. And that in itself made for some hot fantasy. Imagine
this big guy so consumed with lust for her, he’d rip her clothing to get at her
now. Having a man devoted to your pleasure and so insanely aroused that
he took you, hard and fast, was a major turn-on. Maybe she should ask Brent to
play caveman. Or maybe she’d wait to see if he did it on his own.
He didn’t turn into a raging
beast, though, but he kept undressing her methodically. First the blouse, which
he removed and turned to drape over a chair, but she took it from him and
dropped it onto the floor.
His eyebrow went up. “In
a rush?”
“It’s just clothing.”
“You’ll look rumpled
when you leave.”
“So much the better,”
she said. “It’ll prove I got my money’s worth.”
“You’re nuts,
professor.”
“I know.”
He reached behind her
to unfasten her bra. When he had it off, he held it between his thumb and
forefinger before dropping it onto her blouse. A cute game except for the fact
her breasts were now uncovered, and the peaks stood as stiff proof that this
was more than a pleasant encounter, like a little necking on a first date. He
covered her breasts with his hands, squeezing gently. Already primed by their
kiss, her libido roared back to life. The nipples became ultra sensitive
pressed against his palms, and the sensation traveled through her, past her
belly to her sex.
“Sweet,” he said, as he
lifted her breasts and rubbed his thumbs over the tips.
“You must compliment
all your clients.”
“Only honestly,” he
said. “Don’t you think your breasts are beautiful?”
“I guess.”
“Are you really that
out of touch with your own body?” He bent and took a nipple into his mouth. He
continued toying with the other one as he sucked on the first, his cheeks
working. The look on his face was almost angelic; his eyes closed, and his
lashes fanned his cheeks. And oh, the sensations he created. Zingers of
pleasure speeding along her nerves to every erogenous zone on her body. She
wobbled a bit and clutched his head for balance.
Chuckling, he
straightened and pulled her against him. Somehow, he’d melted her bones from
the inside out, and she might have fallen if he hadn’t held her.
“Bed, I think,” he
said.
She merely nodded
against his chest. Before she could guess his intent, he’d bent and scooped her
up into his arms.
“Careful with your
back,” she said, clutching his neck. “I’m heavy.”
“Light as a feather.”
“I’m five ten, you
dummy.” And not overly slender, although she wouldn’t mention that aloud. If he
wanted to play he-man, he’d have only himself to blame if he threw his back out.
Only please not before they’d had crazy monkey sex.
He didn’t seem to
notice her weight but walked to the bed and laid her on the comforter. After
removing her shoes and knee-highs, he unbuttoned her slacks and slid the zipper
down. Her panties came off along with the slacks, and in a moment, she lay
completely naked.
Studying her as if she
were some exotic creature, he laid his hand on her belly; the fingers spread so
one almost reached into the curls over her sex. An odd gesture, almost a
claiming, staking out his territory. Only what did he see when he looked at
her?
“You’re beautiful,” he
said after a long moment.
“Honesty.”
“Total honesty,” he
said. “I can’t wait to fuck you.”
She let out a laugh. She
knew that word, of course, and used it occasionally, especially if someone
really pissed her off. It had never sounded sexy before, but the way he used it—as
if he couldn’t help himself—brought up the whole issue of control again. They’d
gone beyond niceties, and now, they’d, well, fuck.
After ditching his own
shoes and socks, he rose and jerked his sweater over his head, exposing his
naked chest. What a specimen. His jeans rode low on his hips, giving her a view
of him from shoulders to pelvis. A sculptor might have fashioned him as the
ideal male, from the cords of muscle in his neck to the wide collarbone and
below. Firm pectorals, flat belly, and, yes, the outline of a very large
erection straining against his fly.
Staring at him, her
mouth went dry. Her pussy had a completely different reaction, and it was a
good thing, too. If she was going to take all of that inside her, she’d
better be lubricated. And there was no way she’d miss out on a single inch of
him.
He gave her a knowing
smile as he unfastened his fly, one button at a time. He’d worn nothing under
his sweater, and the same went for his pants. When he pushed them down and
stepped out of them, he was gloriously naked. Six foot three of prime male Homo sapiens, with a cock that would
make a porn star proud. All of that for her, as long and as often as she wanted,
for hours and hours.
When he joined her on
the bed, she rolled onto her side so she could run her palms over him. Along
his shoulders and over his chest. She flicked her thumbs over his flat nipples,
registering his slight tremor in response. Farther down, she explored the
planes of his abdomen, but of course, her true destination lay lower. She
curled her fingers around his shaft, savoring the velvet feel of him. Underneath
he was as hard as steel. When she pumped him, he closed his eyes in bliss, and
his breath caught. What a toy he was: hers to play with and enjoy the results. She
couldn’t stop petting him, from the bulbous head to the sac beneath. Ever so
gently, she stroked that with her free hand.
With a groan, he
covered her hand with his, stilling it. “You’ll want to leave me some control.”
What a delight that she
could affect him so powerfully. “You’re a professional.”
“I’m a man first, and
you’re making me incredibly hot.”
She bit her lip. “You
really find me sexy?”
“Don’t you ever doubt
it.” He rolled her onto her back and slid his body over hers. Though he held
himself on his elbows, keeping most of his weight off her, his skin pressed
against hers. What luxury. She ran her hands under his arms and to his back, so
she could stroke it as he lowered his face to hers.
This time when they
kissed, nothing separated them. Nothing at all. She could bask in his warmth
while his lips launched an assault on her senses. Pass after pass of his mouth
on hers soon had her brain reeling. Just enough pressure to make her want more
and more, and all the time, the evidence of his arousal pressed against her
pelvis.
By the time he finished
with her mouth and slid lower, leaving a trail of kisses over her throat, she
was struggling for air. She stroked his hair, his shoulders, anything she could
reach. And then, he was sliding lower, taking a neglected nipple between his
lips. Arching her back, she pressed herself up to him. Offering and demanding
at the same time.
The neural circuits
clicked and connected, sending a charge to all the sensitive places on her body:
to her pussy, of course, but also to the curves behind her knees. Even to the
arches of her feet. With only the gentle sucking at her breast, he could arouse
her entire body.
Then he moved lower,
his skin gliding over hers as he pressed kisses all over her ribs and downward.
Easing her legs apart, he made a place for himself between her thighs. Oh, God,
he was really going to do that. Cunnilingus, oral sex. The ultimate a
man could do for a woman. Her heart nearly stopped in her chest, and for a
moment, she didn’t breathe. If he teased her clitoris with his tongue and she
still didn’t come, what in hell would she say to him?
You were fabulous, but I guess it’s not my night?
It’s not you; it’s me?
And still he went lower,
until his face lay only inches away from her pussy. Now or never time. Countdown
to liftoff. Probably.
She let herself breathe
again. Evenly. And she relaxed her shoulders. But when he parted the lips of
her sex and made a single pass with his tongue, she gasped.
He lifted his head. “Something
wrong?”
“No. I’m great. Just
great.”
“I won’t do this if you
don’t want me to,” he said.
“Please. I do. Really.”
“Okay.” He gave her a
smile. “Relax and enjoy.”
Enjoy, she could manage.
Relax, well, they’d see about that.
He went back to work,
this time stroking her pussy lips gently. Just a brush of his fingertips. Clever
man. Not pushing but enticing. And honestly, how could any woman resist such a
tender caress on her most sensitive flesh? With a sigh, she sank back into the
mattress, closed her eyes, and let him proceed any way that came into his head.
After a bit, his touch landed on the tip of her clitoris, and this time the
jolt that went through her contained nothing but pure pleasure.
“Ohhhhh.” Her own
voice, low and thick with need—she’d never heard herself like that before.
He took that as his cue
and swiped his tongue over her again, from the entrance to her pussy upward,
lingering on her clit. Heaven, pure heaven. Her breathing became ragged enough
to fill the space around them, and she reached down and burrowed her fingers in
his hair to signal her approval. And a silent plea for more.
She needn’t have begged
because he continued. He flicked his tongue over her clit, circled it, and
pressed it. And oh, how she responded. Tiny pricks of light appeared on the
backs of her eyelids as her arousal went to simmer. Her whole body grew warm
and then hot. And he kept going, never letting up on the pressure, building
such a fire of need inside her, she ought to go up in flames.
This time, she’d come. This
time, she wouldn’t be able to hold back. She could do it. Nothing would stop
her.
And then, his finger
probed her entrance, pressing inside and retreating. A whole new set of
sensations. She’d already become wet, and as he slid his finger fully inside
her, more moisture collected between her thighs. Unbelievable pleasure, but how
much more wonderful to have his amazing cock inside her when she came. Stretching
her and filling her. That would have to be the ultimate.
Oh, yeah. Shit, yes. Now.
“I’m ready,” she
whispered.
He lifted his head
again, and she opened her eyes to look at him.
“You sure?” he said. “I
can finish this first.”
“I want you inside me.”
“All right, then.” He
swung his feet over the side of the bed and opened a drawer in the small table.
Quickly, he tore the square packet open and rolled the condom over his cock.
Still holding his
weight off her, he settled himself between her legs. Now she could reach his
shaft and guide the head of his cock between her lips. He eased himself in
slowly, allowing her to savor the passage of each inch. In truth, she had to
adjust to his size, but after a few heart-melting moments, he was fully
embedded in her. They stared into each other’s eyes for a long second, and then
he pulled nearly out and surged back into her.
Lord, have mercy. Her
vision went unfocussed with pleasure, and she closed her eyes. As she had
before, she ran her arms under his and back up so her palms fell on his
shoulders. His muscles tensed with the effort to support his weight. But down
below . . . oh, man . . . down below, the constant thrust and retreat created
havoc inside her. Never in her life had she experienced such total possession.
He groaned into her ear.
“So tight.”
“Is that good?”
“Amazing,” he said.
“You’re amazing, too.”
“I just hope I last.”
He would, certainly. He
was a professional, and he wouldn’t leave her hanging. “I have faith in you.”
He laughed, but the
sound came out strained. His movements grew faster as he pushed himself into
her. Each thrust jostled her clitoris, and the haze of deep arousal clouded her
mind again. Yes, she’d come now. She only had to work a bit harder. Reach for
it. Visualize it. Let it happen.
“Angela?” he whispered.
“Yes, Brent.”
“Are you—”
“Yes. Just don’t stop.”
Damn it. Damn it all to hell. He was perfect. He’d done everything right. She’d
done everything right. Why wouldn’t it happen?
“God!” he shouted. After
a few more massive thrusts, he stiffened in her arms. He’d climaxed, of course.
She’d lied to him, telling him she was going to come, so she could hardly be
upset with him. So, when he sank onto her, she held him and stroked his back.
Maybe he hadn’t noticed
her lack of orgasm. They could try again later. Something different. The
experiment wouldn’t end up a total failure.
After a moment, he
rolled off her onto his side and pulled her against him. “You didn’t come.”
“Maybe I did,” she said.
“Sort of.”
“There’s no sort of
where orgasms are concerned. You either come or you don’t, and you didn’t.”
“It’s not your fault.” She
burrowed her head under his chin, avoiding his gaze. “You were wonderful.”
“Not wonderful enough,
obviously.”
“It’s no big deal.”
“Angela.” He slipped a
finger under her chin and tipped her head back so he could stare into her eyes.
“I’m going to take care of it.”
“How?”
With his trademark
gentle touch, he eased her onto her back and kissed her again. Such a
consummate lover, he wove a veil of lust around her, the heat of his body
warming her right down to her toes. His hand went exploring, over one breast,
past her belly, and landing at the juncture of her thighs. Now when his fingers
went between her pussy lips, they made wet sounds. She could have worried about
that but his finger landed immediately on her clitoris.
“I should have known
better,” he said. “I should have finished you before we fucked.”
She relaxed into the
situation. The worst had happened. She’d tried and failed to have sex the way
most women did. She might as well accept that failure and allow herself to
enjoy his touch now. He clearly knew what he was doing. In a matter of seconds,
he had her back to breathless and throbbing. She wouldn’t interfere.
“Better?” he said.
“Uh-huh.”
“You’re not going to
stop me this time and tell me what to do, are you?”
“Nuh-huh.”
“I’m going to hold you
to that,” he said.
“Brent?”
“Yeah?”
“Stop talking.”
To his credit, he did. To
his even greater credit, he’d found the exact pressure and rhythm to use on her
clit to send her into the heavenly plateau just before orgasm. She wouldn’t
have to try for anything here. No reaching or visualizing or having to force
herself to relax. From here on, she only needed to let him continue to work his
magic. He showed no inclination to stop but continued the press, press, press
that would soon have her flying to the moon.
She hadn’t made a
mistake coming here. Everything would turn out right. She’d have this orgasm
and another and another. Already, she’d come so close. She ought to fight it
off—let the moment linger—but in the end, the pleasure was too intense to
resist, and she had to surrender.
The
sensations wound in on themselves, tightening to a ball in the pit of her belly.
One more second and another, and she’d burst. The climax built and then
exploded inside her, rushing everywhere as her hips jerked upward and she cried
out. The spasms traveled the length of her pussy, crashing over each other.
Brent stayed with her, still pressing and drawing the orgasm out. When she
finally finished, he moved his hand and let her float off on her own personal
cloud. She only vaguely registered that he’d pulled her against him again and
that the scent of honey clung to both of them.
PURCHASE
LINKS:
TOTAL TEMPTATION: http://www.harpercollins.com/9780062346407/total-temptation
TOTAL IMMERSION: http://www.harpercollins.com/9780062346414/total-immersion
TOTAL ABANDON: http://www.harpercollins.com/9780062346568/total-abandon
AUTHOR
BIO:
Alice Gaines likes her fiction hot, hot, hot.
Alice has a PhD from the University of California at Berkeley. She shares a house in Oakland California with her pet corn snake and a stray cat that lives in her yard.
When Alice isn’t making up stories in her head, she spends her time cooking, gardening, and listening to her favorite band, Tower of Power.
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LINKS:
Twitter: @AliceGaines
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